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By Tonya Jone Miller | August 23, 2008
Where the hell did I go? I turn around and it has been almost two weeks since I’ve written. *sigh* I know it’s bad when I get emails and IM’s from people asking me if I’m ok. Am I really such a slave to technology that an absence of a few days is abnormal? The answer appears to be yes. Lol. “Normal” people get two whole days in a row off every week, but I guess we all know I’m far from normal…
One of the things occupying my time lately is my desire to explore my fantasies in the physical world as opposed to the telephonic one. I’ve made the acquaintance of a lovely man I’ll refer to only as M, who is quite delightful with discipline and reward. I’m finally getting the over-the-knee (and various other equipment) spankings I so desperately desire and richly deserve. And it is wonderful to be able to experience my fetishes in a safe and sane environment, and with Howard’s blessings. I am lucky to have a partner like him who understands my need to constantly learn and expand my horizons. Soon I will share some erotica inspired by my recent exploits, but it’s not quite ready yet…
I’ve also been spending an ungodly amount of time grocery shopping and cooking, so that Howard can have edible food that meets his dietary restrictions. I used to cook every day out of necessity- during my marriage, we simply could not afford to eat out. But I got out of the habit of cooking at home once I was back on my own and started to earn a decent living. Now I’m rediscovering my knack for improvising recipes and my love of the kitchen. It helps to have pre-portioned food ready to go in the fridge, so I’ve taken to setting aside time a couple of days a week to cook big batches of healthy things like turkey chili, veggie curry, spiced greens, vegetable ragu, roasted vegetables, whole grains, salads, etc. It’s time consuming, but I actually like that we’re eating healthier. Of course, I do miss dining out. But now I just have to be a little more careful where I go and what I order, because I have absolutely no intention of abandoning my foodie tendencies…After all, there are chef crushes out there just waiting to be discovered! *grin*
Rehearsals for Prelude to a Kiss are going well…I haven’t been called very much, but that’s all going to change this week. I have a total of four days off from Tuesday until we open on September 12th. I don’t care. I’m loving working with these folks and this is a wickedly fun character to play. If you want more details or to purchase tickets, please click here.
My trip to Spokane to produce the Wilco concert was uneventful, and the show went well. But each and every time I agree to produce another show, I am reminded that I simply don’t enjoy it much anymore. There was a time I measured my self worth by my cool rocker chick job and derived an immense amount of pleasure from being hip and in charge. But now? Eh. It’s just a job, and a rather tedious one at that. I’m efficient enough that I do my advance work properly, so the day of the show is a lot of sitting around doing nothing. I try to read or get BCB work done, but there are inevitably enough interruptions to keep me from really doing anything. *sigh* I miss my friends from my production work, and I like the feeling of a job well done, but it most certainly has lost its lustre for me. Which doesn’t mean I won’t produce more shows in the future of course. Lol. Glutton for punishment, that’s me. *wink*
So I realized I’ve been blogging for four and a half years now. And looking back, I’m really glad I’ve kept at it. What started as a way to promote my previous phone sex character, Donna Dione Hill, has turned into a honest journal of my life experiences. And the truth is, even reading back a couple of months makes me cringe. Lol. So easy to judge, instead of loving the lessons I learn each day that make me grow as a person. But I think I’m getting to that point in my life where I am really coming to terms with who I am and what I do, what works for me, and what I need to change.
And one thing that’s very clear to me? Bay City Blues and phone sex are going to be a part of my life for a long time. I think I go in phases, where the various work off the phone (website maintenance, girl management, blog writing, promotion) begins to wear me down and detract from my enjoyment on the phone. But I’m beginning to recognize when that’s happening, and I’ve started to simply sign out and take a little time for myself. So that is another reason you may be seeing a little less of me. The good news is that my new strategy has totally reinvigorated me and inspired me on the phone. Couple that with my new sexual experimentation, and I find my voracious appetite for aural orgasms has returned with hurricane force. I can’t help it- there is something unbelievably gratifying about knowing I can make a man cum with simply my voice and imagination. *smile*
Anyway, I’m still alive and well, though you may have to put up with me being less available during these next few weeks of heavy rehearsals. Never fear, I’m happy to bear the brunt of your frustrations when we finally do connect. Lol.
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