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Me obscene?
By Tonya Jone Miller | December 19, 2008
Heh. Yes I suppose I am. As I pointed out to my dear Big Brother today, it’s my JOB. Lol. The thing is, I’m accustomed to being filthy and foulmouthed for phone sex, and I’ve played some pretty raw, vulgar characters on stage, but Inviting Desire is an entirely different project. It’s weird writing fantasies for myself and others to perform in front of an audience. My nature is to write from a very personal place, so I’m very attached to the pieces I’ve created. But this is an ensemble show, and in the interest of building a cohesive, flowing narrative, it may be necessary for us all to do pieces we didn’t personally write and/or to let go of material that doesn’t find a natural place in the show. Uh huh. Letting go. More for you doesn’t have to mean less for me. Acceptance. Riiiiiiight. Damn you, Universe! You’re such a bastard, all giving me lessons to learn repeatedly and shit. *snort*
But anyway, it’s pretty scary putting my innermost sexual demons out there and claiming ownership of them. When I revealed my real name and face to my phone sex clients, it was absolutely the correct decision for me, but those encounters and fantasies are ephemeral. They live once in conversation and then only as often as we care to revive them in our memories. There is no record of them, no documentation of what was said. They are an improv or a play, not a movie. But writing things down, much less publishing them in any way is quite a bit more permanent. I wonder if I’ll regret this someday. I mean, things change. As a friend is fond of saying, everything is fluid…Will my tide shift someday? I ask myself this question, I acknowledge my fear, yet I cannot keep from doing what I’m doing. Someone has to talk about these things, and I can. So I have to.
Inviting Desire is going to be sweet and sexy and shocking and honest and HOT. We could get laughed at. We might be reviled. We could all be humiliated. We might never work in this town again. We hopefully will foster debate and discussion. But whether anyone admits it or not, I’m pretty damn sure we will inspire some blisteringly hot sex. And that’s something I firmly believe most people could use more of. So I’ll take my chances with karma. *grin* More hot smut to follow…
P.S. Super fun and erotic photo shoot yesterday. New pics soon…
Topics: My Life | 1 Comment »
December 20th, 2008 at 2:01 pm
Only obscene in the out-moded judgmental use — the real obscenities of our time are Wall Street and the war, the current administration and its aftermath. Celebrating life, lust, pleasure, and expression is never obscene…. thanks for stepping up…